boo lovesickness!

September 23, 2005--the last time I said yes to a guy. man, it's almost been a year since that not-so-faithful day. i'm hoping that i wouldn't remember it this saturday. haha, i'm gonna be busy this weekend so it's all good.. hmmm.. sometimes though, i miss being in a relationship. i miss those giddy feelings you get up your spine whenever that special someone is around. i miss having to share life with someone significant. bottomline is, i miss those happy moments with the love of your life. however, it just sucks coz i can't imagine myself in love with someone anymore. i can't picture myself cuddled up with some random Romeo with a smile pasted on my face. you know what, i'm such a skeez when it comes to these stuff--i don't know why. i'm not sure if it's got to do with boys--or is it really me? after that that last failed relationship of mine, which took hell to get over with--i don't really know when i will let next let some guy invade and ruin my world again.. i've been through a lot of shit and i guess that made me repel guys in different ways possible. sure, i've made some crushes over the past months but i don't think i would be able to bring myself to the risk of falling in love again and eventually breaking my fragile heart in the end.

i just wish i'm just a girl without those hurts and pains in her heart. but i am Natasha, the one who was taken for granted over time.. but thank God, i was able to withstand those blows thrown upon me. goodluck to any boy who'll try to step into my little kingdom--i promise i will give you a hard time. hehe! *kidding*


i now impart to you this lovely message from God:

"No man will ever claim you unless he claims you from Me. For I reserved a man for you who has My heart and loves Me even more than he will for you. For I won't give you unless he asks you from Me. He's asleep; don't wake him. He's busy for Me, My kingdom. Soon you will know him, but I have the perfect time. You're My PRINCESS, My daughter. Let no prince claim you unless he asks you from My hand for I am your Father, the KING of Kings. YOU, My princess, ARE WORTH WAITING FOR.

CHEERS TO ALL THE GIRLS OUT THERE :)