whatever days..

've been very busy with school work for almost 2 weeks now and i swear to God it's getting worse. i hope to get through one more week alive, then maybe, just maybe i could happily say hello to our 2-week break. how corny, 14 or so days only. anyways, i'm currently on a short break from my defense-writing or whatever you wanna call that. it's tomorrow so i'm kinda nervous and excited at the same time. and guess what the cherry on top of this week.. i've got a long exam in economics this saturday. dammit.. mr. raymundo really is someone smart eh. activity ban this week noh, that means walang exams or any quiz for that matter.. kaya niya binigay on a saturday. tsk tsk.. oh well, the exam is actually optional but i wouldn't have any other choice either because my first long exam was so pathetic i wasn't so sure if i passed--i didn't, it was impossible. i have to take that test to pull my grade up, i can't afford to fail that subject. i can't afford to fail any subject. and the final blow of it all, i've got my only 3 finals in one day. i just HOPE i don't have to take it one after the other--that would be nasty and disappointing. ima check the schedule of the finals tomorrow.. oh please keep your fingers crossed for me.

anyways.. this really is my objective for writing again.. i dunno if you've visited my multiply homepage lately (if you have, thanks and congratulations. hahahah) but just the same, here is the sitch.

i dunno if ever you've experienced that feeling of nostalgia over something or someone that/who's not really out of your reach but is actually so close to you.. you feel like you've been losing grip over your friends even though you study in the same school.. you feel like you're already losing ground even if you're die trying to stand up for something that reality dictates is not yours.. you make believe that you're happy with your situation only to find yourself down in the dumps once the darkness of the night have already consumed you.. you cry yourself to sleep only to make your eyes swell like a tomato the next day because your tears weren't able to extinguish the loneliness that's been creeping inside you like poison.. you tell the whole world that time is the only key for you to make things right but you yourself don't believe that.. just when you think that everything is fine, it ain't.. because by then, you wake up and see that you've been alone all along.

bummer/