r.i.p.

2 years ago, it was tito eris.
almost a year ago, it was charmie.
2 weeks ago, my lolo willy..
and then, just last sunday, it was djed.

why do they have to leave this world so soon?.. fine, i've accepted the fact that tito eris, charmie and lolo left us.. we're all trying to move on. but when i received the news about djed, i was caught in a daze. i didn't want to believe it because how could he have died of dengue.. i know i know, it's a dangerous illness but then.. of all people, why him? why now? damn.. it was just so.. sad. all those moments i spent with him during grade school and high school came flashing to me like wild fire..

.. lately.. i always find myself thinking about how long i still have to live my life. i'll never know when the light would eventually call me.. and it scares me at the least. i caught myself thinking, the night i learned the news on djed, about what really happens after a person's last breath..

and then i realized i wanted to know.

what if my life comes to an end at this very second?
what would YOU do?


but setting all my thoughts aside, i just wanna say that i'll miss you, djed. and also lolo.. i'll definitely miss you. of course, i won't be a Villanueva if not for you. :)