life and something like it.

i'm slowly drowning in this deafening silence that the night has enclosed me in.

darkness loomed around my very soul as i try to struggle my way out of its grip.

i gasped for any more air for i know that this life can't hold on to me forever.

even if it takes me a lifetime, i will try to keep up.

i wish it wouldn't be this difficult to be on my life's tracks. i wish there was a much easy way.

but then, reality does bite harshly and i gotta know better than what i'm wishing for.

life ain't fair, we all know that. well not until we learn how to be fair with it.

this is my life. this is my purpose. it is my task to make it better for me and for them people. let me have my way.


that's about it, i guess my love for words was in its highest peak this morning @ 2 that's why i came up with these realizations. it's not everyday that i lie down (yes, lie down coz i wrote this before going to bed) and write something this serious, so just ride along with me.

that was last night. today, let's get it on with my Christmas wishes. it is, after all, a week before the big day. :)

14 things that i want for christmas

[1] that adidas sneakers i saw at Cinderella 2 Fridays ago.
[2] chucks!
[3] a new swimsuit.
[4] 3 new pairs of havaianas.
[5] if not, i accept Dupe's.
[6] package full of cd's of my favorite bands/artists.
[7] pair of doll shoes.
[8] digicam of my own.
[9] laptop. ;)
[10] new wallet.
[11] dvds galore.
[12] book 6 of Harry Potter.
[13] to finally be a D.L.
[14] that special someone.

note: arranged in decending order. the last one being the least important of all. BUT LEVEL OF IMPORTANCE MAY CHANGE WITHOUT PRIOR NOTICE. ^_^


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time check: 5:55pm

30 minutes ago, i accompanied my 2 sisters at the clubhouse. damn. there were 2 guys in the pool. and no, i don't think they're cute. i mean, i wasn't able to watch over my sisters properly coz naaasiwa ako sa kanila. ask me why. one was wearing swimming trunks. and the other a very short cycling shorts. forgive me for not being used to seeing guys in trunks. i'd rather see them in boardshorts or something, that would be sexier for me. but man, trunks? ahhhhhhh, scram!!! x_x