On being alone and missing you.

It's been quite a while since I last posted something sensible and worth reading here. Mostly just came from my multiply site, which were co-posted here, from there. Well it has been 2 weeks or so since he left for Chicago and it hasn't been easy all throughout. Though I know he's coming back in a couple of weeks, there still is the emptiness each and every day that only he could fill in. The first week was the worst of all because I wasn't prepared at all for the set-up. I was never a fan of long distance relationships and now I realized why I didn't like the idea at all. Sure there were the occasional emails and chatting over y!m, but come to think of it, you never know what actually is happening over there. I used to have so many fears and I somewhat had the difficulty to voice that out in the proper way that's why it always didn't sound right. During our christmas and new year celebrations, I was always in a constant hurry to get hold of my laptop and internet to check for new messages. It really wasn't easy. Raffy was right, You never know how hard it is until you experience it yourself. But somehow, it gets better. Maybe I got a bit too overwhelmed, which is why we got off at a rough start. And now that I'm getting used to it, I found a few ways to get my mind off the things that usually makes me sad.

19 more days to go until I can smother you with kisses again, babe. I just can't.. wait. :)