this is the shit

i can't believe i'll be reaching this point in my life wherein i literally hate everything and everybody in it.

i got pissed off for the nth time today and it's not even noon. kyle almost made me cry when he unintentionally called me stupid. i know i know that's just so sensitive of me but i couldn't help it, i'm just so vulnerable lately coz of all the stress i've been going through. no matter how hard i try to stay calm, at the end of the day, there's just nothing i could do but let the tears fall. 5 majors is a killer, add it up to 5 units of compana. i didn't even take full load this term--yet it is still so hard to keep my pace in all things.

my world is slowly crumbling apart.. what i thought to be something that i could handle is anything but.

i feel so bad when everybody's with their friends fooling around.. because on top of it all, still standing on where i stood before, i still don't know who my real friends are. it's just sad. and if you think that this entry is stupid and i'm just scouring for attention.. well in the first place, i didn't ask for you to read it.

i'm sorry.. and i'm sorry again
i will die try to feel better..