Spiritual Warfare

It's been a while since I had the Hillsongs playlist in my ipod but for some weird reason, I have not listened to it. I also find myself lately praying as fast as I can before I sleep. I feel so drained, empty, and lost. And I only realized the reasons why on my way home a while ago. I hesitated a bit, but I decided to listen to the songs just the same. Wala pang 10 minutes, tears were already flowing down my cheeks. I guess I just couldn't take all the problems that're piling up in my face everyday. I've been worrying a lot about a hell lot of things lately; I thought I'm strong to be able to carry my own cross, which gets heavy by the minute.. But I'm not. I've reached the point wherein I wondered and asked Him what I did to deserve this. Yes I committed 1 mistake, but should I be punished for a very long time because of that? It just hurts. I couldn't stop crying the whole trip home until now. I just wish He'd take away all the pain that I'm feeling right now so I could live my life once again. I don't want to pretend I'm okay; it's hard when deep inside, everything's broken.

Daig ko pa nag-worship sa kakaiyak. Oh well, it's good that I was able to release part of what's bothering me.

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The Potter's Hand by Darlene Zschech

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour
I know for sure, all my days are held in Your hands, crafted into Your perfect plan
You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes
I'm captured by Your Holy calling
Set me apart, I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Take me, Mold me, Use me, Fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, Guide me, Lead me, Walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes
I'm captured by your Holy calling
Set me apart, I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Take me, Mold me, Use me, Fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, Guide me, Lead me, Walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand

Life in Globe...

is... fun, tiring, and crazy.

Just don't go asking me for prepaid load coz I don't get that here, haha! Working at the HR Group - Service Delivery Center Division - Staffing Department is really one helluva ride. When you mean RECRUITMENT, RECRUITMENT talaga. It's in our office where all the Manpower Requisition Forms (MRFs) from all the different Globe offices are processed. My first week was pa-easy easy lang pero as the days go by, goodluck! Hahaha! Oh well, I'm kinda running out of time to complete my required number of hours but I'm having a good time even though I have to go overtime this week. I arrived today at 6:52 in the morning...... it's 7:36 in the evening already. And I don't feel like going home yet. :)) This is my life. LOL. Wala si Sir Noy tomorrow till Friday so Jeal and I get to use his office to work. YAY! Hahaha! Matatapos na mga ka-OJT ko, ako hindi pa. BOOOO! Pero we're all planning to extend eh, so good times. :) We can't leave Ms. Anne yet.. ang daming trabahong naghihintay. Hehe. :))

I don't want to compute for my allowance yet. I'll just wait till I get my hands on it by the end of my practicum. ALL MINE! =))

BUT.. I'm still paranoid about that case presentation on May 16. Goodluck Nash. Pero at least I don't need to make a Powerpoint, yahoo! :))

Goodluck Nash.. Patay patay. HAHAHAHA!