I need a job but I'm not that desperate.

Well I got a call a while ago from a lady named Teresa Ong. By the way she sounded on the phone, she seemed professional, but not quite. She immediately told me that she's in a hurry for a meeting (At that time? Who has work on a Saturday at 6:30 aside from call centers?) that's why she needed me to listen closely to what she had to say. She didn't give much of an introduction of their company; she only said it was a US company whatever and that they are currently searching for highly qualified individuals bla bla bla who could earn like 15-20,000 a month, if hired. She then asked me to grab a planner so that I could jot down their address and her contact number, should I need to ask her anything. She told me to come in business attire on Monday, 3:30pm at 15th floor BDO San Miguel Ave. Branch, Ortigas. I had to cut her in the middle of our conversation (she was talking way too fast and I hated it) to ask her what position was I qualified for. Guess what, she didn't answer me; all that she said was they're going to explain everything once I get there and pass whatever test or interview they subject me into. I also asked whether I should bring a copy of my resume and she said there is no need.

WHATTT? They're recruiting people but they don't need any CVs?

BAM, that was it.

Maybe she thought I was still in school and that I haven't been to any interviews at all. She sure didn't know that I already graduated college because she had my old cellphone number that I wasn't using anymore. This was the 2nd time I received a call like this and that was when I still had that old number with me. I felt weird about it, not knowing the company and the position. And one thing I've learned during my majors and past job interviews, is to always research about the company and the position because you have to know what you're getting yourself into. So I had no choice but to google it.

Then there it was: a long list of forums, blogs, and multiply posts about the said company. I even stumbled about this blog that described the same situation I was in. Haha maybe Teresa Ong thought I wasn't smart enough. I graduated with a degree in Psychology. I may be in need of a job right now but I don't need some stupid scam or whatever it's called. I'm not that desperate.

If you wanna see for yourself, google the address. Do not fall for any of their schemes.

ILY.

As always, forever and ever, babe.

Rough, Huff, Boom

Rough: a rough start slightly altered my good mood this morning. it's one of those moments that i wanted some consolation but knew there's no way i could get it. SO,

Huff: it's the only thing i can do, before going home that is. deep breath and go home with a heavy heart. arrived in one piece, ate my so-so lunch in the form of mushroom soup, and tried to rest my head to get this mind of mine off some things. THEN,

Boom: just when i least expected it, that text message all the way from chicago made me. all worries, sadness, bitterness.. gone. :)

The drama will soon be over.

3 more days, and yes, my drama will be over. I also found a lot of exciting stuff to look forward to next week and in the coming:

• the week-long job fair. actually i'm eyeing on globe and cannot wait to see the familiar faces that i've worked with during my internship. i know they will be more than glad to accept my resume. i so miss working there! ;)
• biochemistry and biochem lab. i'm surprised i'm getting the hang of the lessons and i wish lab is twice a week. mwahaha i love it!
  
• the unsure date with babe. we haven't talked about this for a while but i really do hope this would push through since we certainly have to make up for all the lost time in the past month.
• the LEAP. i got photography techniques and i'm crossing my fingers hoping it wouldn't be a total waste of time. i haven't attended leap for 3 years that's why i'm pretty excited to do this once again. :)
  
• CSA college days. i swore to myself i need to return to my alma mater before i graduate college. i miss bumming around there. :) anyone up for a trip down memory lane?
• mom's and joey's birthdays; which are a.k.a. valentine's day and the day after. and speaking of valentine's, i don't like roses. it annoys me. ;)

That's about it. I can't get enough of Bolt, which is why I might watch it again later. Ugh I can't wait to watch the current episode of GG. Me hates Ms. Carr. *die die die*

Taking a break

I've said so many times before that I needed a good break from the things that have been stressing me out, and finally I'm taking that step towards it. Hopefully I get to detox and destress during this weekend without all the hassles of Manila. And what I want is to forget, even for a little while, some things that do bother me.

Canyon Woods, here I come! :D

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One thing to know for sure whether I am extremely unhappy is that I listen to Hillsongs and I tend to be obsessive compulsive in one way or another. I didn't think of that until a while ago when I couldn't hold on any longer and my tear ducts gave me away. I'm really tired. And desperate for something good to happen.

I hope I'm not yet beyond repair. I still want to smile after all these..

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I used to be good at pretending. Especially pretending to be happy, elated, and free of worries.

I wonder what went wrong..

I need to be good at this again.

Never Again.

I'm back to where I started. There goes the bitterness creeping in again. I just don't know how long I can hold on to this. I don't know if it's only the moment that calls for this but still.. it's tiring already.

Never again will I wait for you anymore. Maybe it's time you come running after me.